I am today mostly feeling really sorry for myself. I have a friend who is supposed to be one of the best ones, and she is really bringing me down. I sort of want to cut her out, but I am godmother to her son and she is doing a reading at our wedding. But, she seems to be getting really good at pissing me off, a lot.
I can normally handle her life plans changing every week, from getting this house to getting that dream house, to building their own house, to staying where they are. To splitting up to having a baby, to splitting up and moving out with the new baby. To getting back together then splitting up again. To then saying she will never move back in, to moving back in and getting pregnant again prior to moving in, 2 weeks after the latest getting back together. To then getting a lot of money from an accident, and using it to start up a buisness with supposedly 8000 pounds turnover a month allowing her not to work again, to not mentioning this money ever again. Then when I ask, they have got the money but are no longer going into buisness, but have found another forever house they are going to re-do,extend and live forever in. And there was me thinking it was odd that she was skint a few months ago to her getting new wardrobes for the family and re-doing the rented house all up! Mmmmhh not such a surprise now. Then her other half is now entering another new venture with a multimillionaire which will bring a grand a month extra so she is going to be able to work less following the next baby. To then perhaps not working at all if it all kicks off, and her being his PA to manage accounts. To then they have put an offer in on a house, and are waiting for his house to sell and this house couple are happy to wait until they can buy it. Oh and they will get married and she will have one of the best diamonds you can get and etc etc etc. Until I cant breath!
So thats a quick picture of how things are, and other than being really excited if I have any probs to talk about, she is rather not interested in anything. Not the wedding, other than she will be glad to drink and smoke again and she will try and keep on a few extra pounds so I am slimmer than her on my big day (said in jest but I bet she means it) and it will be a night away for them. Super supportive. She asks me how dresses are going whilst looking at her phone, cos she cant have a conversation without looking at it.
And I just dont buy it! This whole, never been happier shit when about 4 times in the space of a year she has said he is not the person she wants him to be and will never change, she doesnt like how he is as a parent etc... why is she now all of a sudden happy and having another kid! My prediction is, in another year we will have gone through all this again. TWICE.
Now, if she was a proper proper best friend, I could be honest with her and tell her, but I just dont think she will accept it. So what the hell do I do!??? I am stuck.
Anway the 50//50 title is because that was the shitty half, this will be the good half.
I tried on wedding dresses and it was fab! I think I have found the one, but cant say too much cos David reads this! But got one more app tomorrow and then i think i will leave it at that if cant find any. Tomorrow is a big designer shop though so probably more dear! And more choice! Eeek!